ambivalent
am-BIV-uh-luntadjMeaning having mixed feelings, pulled two ways at once
Memory hook AMBI = BOTH: pulled BOTH ways. Pip wants to go to the beach and wants to go to the movies just as much; pulled both ways at once, he is ambivalent.
Lila felt ambivalent about moving: excited to see a new city but sad to leave her friends.
In context He was ambivalent about the job offer; the pay was wonderful, but the long commute would mean seeing his children only on weekends.
Similar torn, conflicted, undecided, of two minds
Opposite certain, decided, sure
Made from ambi- (both) + Latin valens (being strong): feelings that are strong in both directions.